New addition to our family...

My sweet husband let us get a kitten this past weekend! He swore we would NEVER have another inside pet....but he had a change of heart! My little boy is thrilled beyond words with this new kitten. He will not leave it alone. We named him "Sox" (socks but I like to spell things differently) He is the sweetest thing and just lets my children pick him up and tote him around. My daughter likes to hold Sox like a baby and rub his neck. Needless to say, the kitten is spoiled!

Journey's

I am on a journey this year. I want to be a better Mother, wife, sister, daughter, Aunt, friend etc. I have learned that there is no better time than the present. I am not normally one to let my problems be known, but I feel like this past month has really broken me down. I have not been myself and I have let sadness get the best of me. I have begun to fear dying. I do not want to die until I am sure that EVERYONE in my life knows how much they mean to me. I do not want to die and have some people wondering if I really loved them or not. I have a fear of my children remembering the bad times instead of all the good time. Memories have a way of tricking us. I have a much easier time remembering the bad things from my childhood and I know there were a lot of good times.
I am trying so hard to be a better Mother. I pray all the time that God will show me the way and help me to have a more peaceful heart. So, 2009, here I come. Ready or not.

Happy New Year!

Just wanted to say Happy New Year to all my friends! I hope this year brings lots of love and happiness to everyone. May God bless you all!

Thankful for family and friends...

This could have easily been the worst Christmas ever for me. Instead, the love and support of my family and friends has sustained me. I am truly blessed by each and everyone in my family. My friends....there are no words to express my gratitude. I am thankful for all the spectacular people in my life!

Hormones and Heartbreak

I am in the midst of my "hulk" week. It couldn't come at a more terrible time. I am battling hormones, sadness, a bit of depression and most of all a broken heart. I am feeling very empty at the moment. I know it will pass, not get better, just pass for a moment. Today I spent the day with my husband. My mother took the children to her house so I could get myself together from the past two weeks events(losing an uncle and friend). Today was great, being with my husband and enjoying each other but memories kept creeping in. Every where I turned, I remembered my friend.

December should be happy....

December has always been my favorite month! I love to see all the Christmas decorations, lights, and most of all excited children waiting on Santa. But this year has brought the worst December of my life so far. One of my dearest friends went to the hospital for routine knee surgery on December 8. She developed a shower of blood clots in her lungs and her heart stopped three times. They revived her only to watch her as she slept for over a week. She passed away at midnight last night. I lost a beloved Uncle unexpectedly on December 12. He was in the hospital for two broken ribs and Pheumonia. He died from complications from COPD. The pain I feel right now is unreal. I have lost a lot of family members, but not a friend. I almost feel like I am not really here. It is surreal right now.

My Friend...

A dear friend of mine went in for routine knee surgery this Monday, and on Tuesday she had a series of blood clots in her lungs and her heart stopped three times. She was without oxygen for 10 minutes and the doctors don't have any answers as to whether or not she will be fully recovered. This lady is something special to me! I worked with her for almost 4 years and have been friends with her for almost 9 years. She is truly a giving person. There isn't anything she wouldn't do for her friends and family. I have never known of her to turn anyone down if they needed her. Now, she needs my prayers. So I ask of you, dear reader, to please pray for my sweet friend, Gale.