Journey's

I am on a journey this year. I want to be a better Mother, wife, sister, daughter, Aunt, friend etc. I have learned that there is no better time than the present. I am not normally one to let my problems be known, but I feel like this past month has really broken me down. I have not been myself and I have let sadness get the best of me. I have begun to fear dying. I do not want to die until I am sure that EVERYONE in my life knows how much they mean to me. I do not want to die and have some people wondering if I really loved them or not. I have a fear of my children remembering the bad times instead of all the good time. Memories have a way of tricking us. I have a much easier time remembering the bad things from my childhood and I know there were a lot of good times.
I am trying so hard to be a better Mother. I pray all the time that God will show me the way and help me to have a more peaceful heart. So, 2009, here I come. Ready or not.