Thankful for family and friends...

This could have easily been the worst Christmas ever for me. Instead, the love and support of my family and friends has sustained me. I am truly blessed by each and everyone in my family. My friends....there are no words to express my gratitude. I am thankful for all the spectacular people in my life!

Hormones and Heartbreak

I am in the midst of my "hulk" week. It couldn't come at a more terrible time. I am battling hormones, sadness, a bit of depression and most of all a broken heart. I am feeling very empty at the moment. I know it will pass, not get better, just pass for a moment. Today I spent the day with my husband. My mother took the children to her house so I could get myself together from the past two weeks events(losing an uncle and friend). Today was great, being with my husband and enjoying each other but memories kept creeping in. Every where I turned, I remembered my friend.

December should be happy....

December has always been my favorite month! I love to see all the Christmas decorations, lights, and most of all excited children waiting on Santa. But this year has brought the worst December of my life so far. One of my dearest friends went to the hospital for routine knee surgery on December 8. She developed a shower of blood clots in her lungs and her heart stopped three times. They revived her only to watch her as she slept for over a week. She passed away at midnight last night. I lost a beloved Uncle unexpectedly on December 12. He was in the hospital for two broken ribs and Pheumonia. He died from complications from COPD. The pain I feel right now is unreal. I have lost a lot of family members, but not a friend. I almost feel like I am not really here. It is surreal right now.

My Friend...

A dear friend of mine went in for routine knee surgery this Monday, and on Tuesday she had a series of blood clots in her lungs and her heart stopped three times. She was without oxygen for 10 minutes and the doctors don't have any answers as to whether or not she will be fully recovered. This lady is something special to me! I worked with her for almost 4 years and have been friends with her for almost 9 years. She is truly a giving person. There isn't anything she wouldn't do for her friends and family. I have never known of her to turn anyone down if they needed her. Now, she needs my prayers. So I ask of you, dear reader, to please pray for my sweet friend, Gale.

Things that make you go HMMMM....

I wonder what Women would be like if Eve hadn't sinned in the Garden of Eden. I am convinced that we women are being continually punished for what Eve did all those years ago. Why else do we suffer once a month and make our family suffer once a month when we(ME) seem to get really angry at the drop of a hat. I seem to be getting worse with age. I can remember when my moods didn't fluctuate so much. NOW, it is "LOOK OUT, TAKE COVER, DON'T LOOK IN HER EYES!" I feel like the swamp thing! I am so terrible to my family and I wonder why they even keep me around. I told my son (who is the main recipient of these bursts of fury) yesterday that I was going to tell his Daddy to get him a NEW mom. I also asked my husband last night to "relieve me of my Mothering duties." HMMMMM do ya think evil has invaded my body????? Today I am not so angry, but the damage is done. I apologized to hubby (by text message), but I dont' think it made much of a difference. His text response was "we can't take it." I do wish that he could feel just once how I feel inside. I think maybe he would be a bit more understanding.

I think ALL males that are marrying females should be required to take a course on how the female mind and body works. Maybe then there woudn't be women like me who go "postal" once a month!! ;)

Christopher turns 5

Well, between school starting and things going on around me, I totally forgot to post Christopher's birthday pix (he turned 5 on August 15)! I feel so bad!! He had a wonderful time with all his friends and got some neat presents. I can't believe my "baby" is 5. It just doesn't seem like he should be this old. I told him that I wanted him to slow down growing and he said " I can't Mommy, God wants me to grow." What a smart boy. He amazes me every day with his wit and wisdom and I am blessed to have him as my son.

Talking to myself...

Well, I am beginning to think I am not so good at being a "stay at home Mom" without any children here! I went to the grocery store for the BIG shopping trip of the month, and I found myself talking out loud to the air! For 8 years I have had a child in the buggy with me. Today I realized I can no longer talk to myself in public.....I might be mistaken for a crazy lady. I did get a couple of strange glances, but if anyone would have stood still for a moment, I would have talked to them. I miss my babies!!!

1st day of school

Sarah and Christopher started school yesterday (Aug 6) She is in 3rd grade and he is in Kindergarten. It is hard to believe my "baby" is in school now. I feel empty being at home alone. I kept hearing echos of thier voices while I was busily cleaning the house.

I read a quote today and tweaked it a bit. Here is my version: "FIND THE FUN IN TODAY!"

I am going to try and do that everyday for my children. Sometimes I get caught up in trying to be the perfect everything that I forget to do the simple things to be happy. Yesterday I could hear Christopher's voice saying "Play with me Mommy." And my voice saying "maybe later." Later is too long.....

Have a blessed day!

A week without children

My children are gone this week for a visit with an Aunt and Uncle. Needless to say, our home is a very quiet and peaceful place right now. I have talked to Sarah on the phone everyday since Sunday(the day they left) She tells me she just wants to talk about what they are doing each day! ;) My heart is aching a bit because I have never been apart from my children for more that three days at a time. This is a new experience for me. Although I have TONS of things I could and need to do, I cannot get over the quietness in the house. It makes me feel so sad when I think of how much time has passed and how fast they are growing. Before I know it they will be grown and gone and once again the house will be silent. In this hectic life sometimes I forget to take time to just "be" with my children and enjoy the NOW. So my prayer for all my friends is that you take the time to just "be" with your families. God bless you all!

Kids first trip on airplane

Our family just got back from a week long visit to Chicago. My husband had a meeting there and asked us all to go for a short vacation! It was the children's first time on an airplane. They were beside themselves! I couldn't get over how excited they were to get on the thing! (I do not like airplanes) They fought over who was going to sit by the window and they laughed and giggled the WHOLE 1 1/2 hour flight!! We had a wonderful time in Chicago and got to see a lot of sights thanks to a generous man that my husband knows. He lives in Chicago and is retired with not much to do. He chauffeured us around for three days and gave us a native look into Chicago. I am so thankful he was so willing to be our guide. It is definitely one of my best vacations yet!!

Check out my Slide Show!

Well, my sweet Angel turned 8 on Monday! We had her birthday party on Saturday and she had a blast. On Monday I talked to her about what was happening on the day she was born(I do this every year) and how I was feeling. It is amazing that God has given me this beautiful girl to be my daughter. I am sad that she is growing up so fast, but I am so very happy that I get to watch her grow up. She is an amazing child and I am blessed to be her mother.

Christopher started Kindergarten today...

Well, my baby is officially a kindergartener! The school he will attend has a two week summer program for children entering Kindergarten (4 hrs a day). I was so worried about how he was going to do and what he was going to do when we got there. He was a champ! After we picked him up today he kept saying "I'm in kindergarten now! I'm a kindergartener!" He is so excited. I couldn't be more thrilled. It makes me sad though to realize that he is growing up and won't be my "baby" anymore. I am so afraid his sweet hugs and kisses will soon stop once he is a "big boy" in school. Please pray for me to get thru this new stage.

Hello my friends!

Hi to all! I have seen several friends bloggs and I just thought it was a neat way to keep up with everyone. There are some friends that I have not kept up with and for that I say a big I'M SORRY! I have let LIFE get in the way of remembering those special people in my life. Living out of Elba has definitely kept me out of touch with friends. It is hard living so far away from 'home.' I don't know how well I'll do with this blog, but here goes.......